What an incredible gifted and loving being you are! For having so much on your plate you’re also juggling them profoundly well. Sending you love and ease when you can take it and cat angels to purr
Love your insight and writing!
Thank you!! Art DOES happen…
This has been a truly trying year for me as well. I have managed to do things I didn’t think I could do anymore simply out of necessity, I’m glad I’m not the only one!????
WendyLeeGadzuk
It does help to know we are not alone! Writing really helps me with this, though it is sometimes a painful process!
Nan
You’re both amazing and wonderful humans.
I’m grateful for what you share with the world.
I know the struggle of invasive weeds! Every year mid summer or late spring the tumbleweeds start to grow. They spread fast and grow to be 10 feet tall by five feet wide, each one! There’s several varieties that grow on one acre. I found a guy that does tractor work, after trying to keep them at bay and nothing really working, I called him. Now he comes every year. For two hundred dollars he cuts and pulls them all up. Now I just have to find someone to haul the piles away because I’m terrified of fire and am not comfortable burning them. I’m guessing if your land is similar, flat, you could call someone to do the same. It saves so much time and work.
Hoping you all have a great holiday season and your new year is healthy, happy, love filled and magickal…????
WendyLeeGadzuk
Yes…a tractor is sometimes the only solution. Where are you located?
Bonnie Brady
I admire you and Tony so much.
WendyLeeGadzuk
Thanks Bonnie. I admire you as well!
Jennifer Ciri
It has been an amazingly stressful year for you. I hope that things get better at least with the move being over. I hope you’re able to build your art studio. I’m sure that will help a lot. There are times in our lives, unfortunately, when all we can do is whatever it takes to survive. I also hated it when people would tell me, “Make sure you take care of yourself too!” I wanted to say to them (and to some people I did), “OK, so what things should I NOT do so that I can have time for “self care?” Should I not go to work? Not take care of Bob? Not feed the cats? Not check on the horses? Because I’m already NOT doing anything I don’t absolutely have to do.” People are well meaning, but they don’t get it if they haven’t been through something similar. I’m glad you are starting to find some moments again to work on your art. And maybe some days all you can do is steal a few moments in between other duties. But having something you are passionate about doing that inspires you can energize you and bring you back to yourself like you said. For me it’s riding my horse. Even during the rest of the day while I’m doing other stuff, just thinking about my horse and the progress we’re making together makes me happy. That keeps me going and makes me feel like my true self again. I also have a community of horse friends who are supportive and who also make me laugh. I’m glad you have your art and your community of artist friends who do the same for you. ❤️
WendyLeeGadzuk
Thanks Jennifer! Yeah, I know exactly what you mean. People mean well, but it doesn’t help to hear that, when you’re hanging by a thread. I know it’s been a tough year for you as well and I’m hoping that you are able to find those precious moments with your horse!
Alea
I can’t find the words.
Just tears.
Love you
so much!
WendyLeeGadzuk
Love you too!
Kin green
Wow! Thank you for the insight. Very powerful stuff. Proud of you for always moving forward – and for always creating !! You are amazing !!
Pure genius! Magick words and images everywhere on this page.
WendyLeeGadzuk
Thank you!! xoxo
Allyson
What an exciting endeavor for you! The cards and accompanying book are beautiful! I’m looking forward to connecting with them and can’t wait for the tarot deck. I’m so proud of you!
Hi Wendy, I relate to so much of what you said in this blog, in fact most of it. Especially the anxiety and fatigue from socializing. I’m always trying so hard to be likable I sometimes forget to be real. Depression has plagued me for most of my life. Lately it’s been interfering with my ability to doing things I love, like making art, writing and playing music and singing. I have a studio space with my drums set up which I never touch. It’s become more of a storage space that I avoid, lots of “things” I’ve saved for art projects or for someday! Menopause and physical changes! Ugh! There are many good things I’ve made happen in the last year. Most importantly I’ve been focusing on building friendships and not wasting time trying to date! 😄 It really helps me be much happier and boosts my self-esteem. I really loved singing back up with you guys at the Motordead show! I felt so good! I haven’t sung since 2014. I really needed that push and Beth has been such a great friend to me. thank you for including me! I’ve always wanted to get to know you better. I’ll admit that I’ve been a bit intimidated because I think you’re so cool! I’m so impressed by your art, guitar shredding and how productive you are! Cheers to our brilliant future! — Robin
WendyLeeGadzuk
Robin,
Thanks for reading and taking the time to respond! And we loved having you on backup vocals at our show! In fact, here it is: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xejcuq3MgoQ
I hear ya. And I think you’re cool, too…so let’s hang out!!
Mary G. Hyde
Oh, Wendy. What a beautiful, personal sharing of your feelings and of Bill’s wonderful life. Yes, there must be a time when we are ready to let go and accept whatever may be next. Peace for the soul. Love to you and Tony.
My sister and I scattered our mother’s ashes into the ocean at Fernandina beach June 2017. A beautiful mystical place protected by the parks department. So nice that your dad got to live with a lady who loved him in that beautiful place.
I’m glad to know you’re okay. That you have a higher understanding, that you dreamt about your old pup right before your dad passed, cuz you know that he helped your dad find his way.
It’s all so big, so good, so natural, if we let it all be the way it’s supposed to. Thank you for allowing me to peer into your experience a little bit. Thank you for your loving and kind heart, and your mastery in your art!
Love to Tony and your other little babies, past, now, and soon to come.
You rock it, honey!🤩
WendyLeeGadzuk
There it is! That’s amazing that you have been there, too. xo
Kamille
W O W
I love your fearless authenticity.
I can feel your heart.
Thank you so much for sharing this.
May peace be with you.
WendyLeeGadzuk
Thank you Kamille.
Judy shapiro
What a beautiful remembrance Wendy. You have so captured his soul and the soul of your relationship. He is such a personal loss to us and real loss to science and humanity. But you were right in the end he was ready to go. He called the night before he died or two nights to say goodbye.And I responded will talk to you later Bill, and he said “no this will be the last time we talk”. He was at peace I believe. But we are left with good memories of him. We so loved him.
WendyLeeGadzuk
Yes…he knew, in no uncertain terms. I’m so glad you guys got to talk to him.
Gneiss Moon
This is so beautiful Wendy, thank you for sharing your memories with us. I love your reading of the signs as well. Much love to you and Tony and your family and your critters.
WendyLeeGadzuk
Thank you, and thank you for reading.
Nan Okeefe
This is a beautiful tribute to your father. May he Rest In Peace.
Hugs and light to you. Nan
WendyLeeGadzuk
Thank you Nan. xo
Judy shapiro
What a beautiful remembrance Wendy. You have so captured his soul and the soul of your relationship. He is such a personal loss to us and real loss to science and humanity. But you were right in the end he was ready to go. He called the night before he died or two nights to say goodbye.And I responded will talk to you later Bill, and he said “no this will be the last time we talk”. He was at peace I believe. But we are left with good memories of him. We so loved him.
Fat man
Love it! ❤️
WendyLeeGadzuk
xoxo Thank you!!
Judy Crockett Shapiro
Wendy, your work is absolutely beautiful, reminding me very much of an artist who was my predecessor as an artist in residence – Judy Chicago. As I read your post the word “vulvular” kept coming to mind and thankfully, sure enough you clarified the feminine nature of the work. Good job! You will do well with your decks. Keep at it.
WendyLeeGadzuk
Thank you Judy! And I will have to investigate this other Judy, as well! And you keep at it, too. xo
Diane
I love everything about this post Wendy, thank you for sharing! Your oracle is beautiful and your words inspire me to work with it more. Fun tiny peek, too, at your reading space – gorgeous! Looking very forward to future posts…and maybe (!?) a future tarot deck!
WendyLeeGadzuk
Thank you Diane! I appreciate your enthusiasm. And yes…a tarot deck will be coming in the future, for sure!!
Tonelise
Can I have apiecein the show?
WendyLeeGadzuk
Yes! But please do follow the above guidelines so I can keep track of who’s in!!
Thank you Wendy for hosting such an intense and thought provoking show. I had no idea that it was your first. You seemed very much like you had done many. It was a very well put together show.
I really enjoyed your worked and the opportunity to talk about the tough medical situations that we encounter in this life. It is very healing to have such deep conversations about this topic.
Your artwork really conjured up so much feelings and thought.
And thank you for sharing these experiences and people that you met in this post.
WendyLeeGadzuk
Thank you for sharing your story with me. I appreciate all the honesty that this show brought forth. I have done many shows before, but what I meant was this was the first where I really created a body of work specifically for this show (aside from group shows where I’ve created a single piece with a theme in mind.) I hope to do it again soon! xo
Cristie Carter
Thank you for sharing these stories. We can easily forget that we are have a story and some just carry them around till the perfect moment. Sound like you created an opening through your art for people to feel comfortable and relatable. That is so powerful!
WendyLeeGadzuk
Thank you for reading, and thank you for saying that. Yes, I’m sure you have quite a story, too!
Kamille
Wendy, the piece is so beautiful. I can’t imagine what you’ve been through. What Tony has been through. I’m speechless. My love to you both.
Kamille
WendyLeeGadzuk
Thank you Kamille! Nice to have you in this journey as well. xoxo
Clementine
So lovely Wendy. I love the imagery, in particular the elevator doors. Wonderful writing.
Thanks for this. I don’t know you and Tony well but I admire both of you so much!
Much appreciated. And same to you!
What an incredible gifted and loving being you are! For having so much on your plate you’re also juggling them profoundly well. Sending you love and ease when you can take it and cat angels to purr
Thank you so much and I appreciate you reading!
Geez I don’t know what to say! I really don’t!
Well thanks for saying something!
Love your insight and writing!
Thank you!! Art DOES happen…
This has been a truly trying year for me as well. I have managed to do things I didn’t think I could do anymore simply out of necessity, I’m glad I’m not the only one!????
It does help to know we are not alone! Writing really helps me with this, though it is sometimes a painful process!
You’re both amazing and wonderful humans.
I’m grateful for what you share with the world.
I know the struggle of invasive weeds! Every year mid summer or late spring the tumbleweeds start to grow. They spread fast and grow to be 10 feet tall by five feet wide, each one! There’s several varieties that grow on one acre. I found a guy that does tractor work, after trying to keep them at bay and nothing really working, I called him. Now he comes every year. For two hundred dollars he cuts and pulls them all up. Now I just have to find someone to haul the piles away because I’m terrified of fire and am not comfortable burning them. I’m guessing if your land is similar, flat, you could call someone to do the same. It saves so much time and work.
Hoping you all have a great holiday season and your new year is healthy, happy, love filled and magickal…????
Yes…a tractor is sometimes the only solution. Where are you located?
I admire you and Tony so much.
Thanks Bonnie. I admire you as well!
It has been an amazingly stressful year for you. I hope that things get better at least with the move being over. I hope you’re able to build your art studio. I’m sure that will help a lot. There are times in our lives, unfortunately, when all we can do is whatever it takes to survive. I also hated it when people would tell me, “Make sure you take care of yourself too!” I wanted to say to them (and to some people I did), “OK, so what things should I NOT do so that I can have time for “self care?” Should I not go to work? Not take care of Bob? Not feed the cats? Not check on the horses? Because I’m already NOT doing anything I don’t absolutely have to do.” People are well meaning, but they don’t get it if they haven’t been through something similar. I’m glad you are starting to find some moments again to work on your art. And maybe some days all you can do is steal a few moments in between other duties. But having something you are passionate about doing that inspires you can energize you and bring you back to yourself like you said. For me it’s riding my horse. Even during the rest of the day while I’m doing other stuff, just thinking about my horse and the progress we’re making together makes me happy. That keeps me going and makes me feel like my true self again. I also have a community of horse friends who are supportive and who also make me laugh. I’m glad you have your art and your community of artist friends who do the same for you. ❤️
Thanks Jennifer! Yeah, I know exactly what you mean. People mean well, but it doesn’t help to hear that, when you’re hanging by a thread. I know it’s been a tough year for you as well and I’m hoping that you are able to find those precious moments with your horse!
I can’t find the words.
Just tears.
Love you
so much!
Love you too!
Wow! Thank you for the insight. Very powerful stuff. Proud of you for always moving forward – and for always creating !! You are amazing !!
You too!!
Thanks for your blog, nice to read. Do not stop.
Pure genius! Magick words and images everywhere on this page.
Thank you!! xoxo
What an exciting endeavor for you! The cards and accompanying book are beautiful! I’m looking forward to connecting with them and can’t wait for the tarot deck. I’m so proud of you!
Thank you so much! I hope you love them!
Love this, thx!!!!
Hi Wendy, I relate to so much of what you said in this blog, in fact most of it. Especially the anxiety and fatigue from socializing. I’m always trying so hard to be likable I sometimes forget to be real. Depression has plagued me for most of my life. Lately it’s been interfering with my ability to doing things I love, like making art, writing and playing music and singing. I have a studio space with my drums set up which I never touch. It’s become more of a storage space that I avoid, lots of “things” I’ve saved for art projects or for someday! Menopause and physical changes! Ugh! There are many good things I’ve made happen in the last year. Most importantly I’ve been focusing on building friendships and not wasting time trying to date! 😄 It really helps me be much happier and boosts my self-esteem. I really loved singing back up with you guys at the Motordead show! I felt so good! I haven’t sung since 2014. I really needed that push and Beth has been such a great friend to me. thank you for including me! I’ve always wanted to get to know you better. I’ll admit that I’ve been a bit intimidated because I think you’re so cool! I’m so impressed by your art, guitar shredding and how productive you are! Cheers to our brilliant future! — Robin
Robin,
Thanks for reading and taking the time to respond! And we loved having you on backup vocals at our show! In fact, here it is:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xejcuq3MgoQ
I hear ya. And I think you’re cool, too…so let’s hang out!!
Oh, Wendy. What a beautiful, personal sharing of your feelings and of Bill’s wonderful life. Yes, there must be a time when we are ready to let go and accept whatever may be next. Peace for the soul. Love to you and Tony.
Thank you. And to you too! xo
My sister and I scattered our mother’s ashes into the ocean at Fernandina beach June 2017. A beautiful mystical place protected by the parks department. So nice that your dad got to live with a lady who loved him in that beautiful place.
I’m glad to know you’re okay. That you have a higher understanding, that you dreamt about your old pup right before your dad passed, cuz you know that he helped your dad find his way.
It’s all so big, so good, so natural, if we let it all be the way it’s supposed to. Thank you for allowing me to peer into your experience a little bit. Thank you for your loving and kind heart, and your mastery in your art!
Love to Tony and your other little babies, past, now, and soon to come.
You rock it, honey!🤩
There it is! That’s amazing that you have been there, too. xo
W O W
I love your fearless authenticity.
I can feel your heart.
Thank you so much for sharing this.
May peace be with you.
Thank you Kamille.
What a beautiful remembrance Wendy. You have so captured his soul and the soul of your relationship. He is such a personal loss to us and real loss to science and humanity. But you were right in the end he was ready to go. He called the night before he died or two nights to say goodbye.And I responded will talk to you later Bill, and he said “no this will be the last time we talk”. He was at peace I believe. But we are left with good memories of him. We so loved him.
Yes…he knew, in no uncertain terms. I’m so glad you guys got to talk to him.
This is so beautiful Wendy, thank you for sharing your memories with us. I love your reading of the signs as well. Much love to you and Tony and your family and your critters.
Thank you, and thank you for reading.
This is a beautiful tribute to your father. May he Rest In Peace.
Hugs and light to you. Nan
Thank you Nan. xo
What a beautiful remembrance Wendy. You have so captured his soul and the soul of your relationship. He is such a personal loss to us and real loss to science and humanity. But you were right in the end he was ready to go. He called the night before he died or two nights to say goodbye.And I responded will talk to you later Bill, and he said “no this will be the last time we talk”. He was at peace I believe. But we are left with good memories of him. We so loved him.
Love it! ❤️
xoxo Thank you!!
Wendy, your work is absolutely beautiful, reminding me very much of an artist who was my predecessor as an artist in residence – Judy Chicago. As I read your post the word “vulvular” kept coming to mind and thankfully, sure enough you clarified the feminine nature of the work. Good job! You will do well with your decks. Keep at it.
Thank you Judy! And I will have to investigate this other Judy, as well! And you keep at it, too. xo
I love everything about this post Wendy, thank you for sharing! Your oracle is beautiful and your words inspire me to work with it more. Fun tiny peek, too, at your reading space – gorgeous! Looking very forward to future posts…and maybe (!?) a future tarot deck!
Thank you Diane! I appreciate your enthusiasm. And yes…a tarot deck will be coming in the future, for sure!!
Can I have apiecein the show?
Yes! But please do follow the above guidelines so I can keep track of who’s in!!
Thank you Wendy for hosting such an intense and thought provoking show. I had no idea that it was your first. You seemed very much like you had done many. It was a very well put together show.
I really enjoyed your worked and the opportunity to talk about the tough medical situations that we encounter in this life. It is very healing to have such deep conversations about this topic.
Your artwork really conjured up so much feelings and thought.
And thank you for sharing these experiences and people that you met in this post.
Thank you for sharing your story with me. I appreciate all the honesty that this show brought forth. I have done many shows before, but what I meant was this was the first where I really created a body of work specifically for this show (aside from group shows where I’ve created a single piece with a theme in mind.) I hope to do it again soon! xo
Thank you for sharing these stories. We can easily forget that we are have a story and some just carry them around till the perfect moment. Sound like you created an opening through your art for people to feel comfortable and relatable. That is so powerful!
Thank you for reading, and thank you for saying that. Yes, I’m sure you have quite a story, too!
Wendy, the piece is so beautiful. I can’t imagine what you’ve been through. What Tony has been through. I’m speechless. My love to you both.
Kamille
Thank you Kamille! Nice to have you in this journey as well. xoxo
So lovely Wendy. I love the imagery, in particular the elevator doors. Wonderful writing.
Thank you! I always enjoy your writing as well!!
Yay